it’s been a busy week. yesterday was a long, rough day. and today i’m drained. i’m in a daze unable to really think or focus. i will take this as my day of rest. maybe i will make cookies. and tomorrow begins another busy week, but a good one. one to distract me. a week filled doing what i love with the people i love. tomorrow i will be excited for my upcoming week but for now i’m pretty empty of strong emotions
home! home! home!
This year has been a rough Christmas. Not because of family or stress or any external thing but all due to my lack of trust in God’s timing. Loneliness is a terrible thing. Most of my life I have been alright with God giving me singleness. I was even grateful for God’s protection of my heart. Lately though my heart has been less than grateful. I have been tired, lonely, distrusting, and impatient. My mind knows that the Lord has my best in mind and knows me [and my impatient heart] better than I do but I cannot seem to rest in that. I can’t trust God’s word or the knowledge that I know God always provides in the best way possible. I need to rely on this. I need prayer and advice. Sometimes I wish God would give me a neon sign about my life. I long for a relationship, someone to introduce to my parents, someone who pursues me, and someone who finds me beautiful. Lord give me strength to trust in You and please give me patience in Your timing.